Black Saturday _ April 6, 2007

So this is what I call Easter outside Philippines, it's different from what i usually have..i wasn't able to visit the Grotto (Marilao, Bulacan) this year. I don't do visita iglesia for Easter but this year no way to do as well..

I had restless weeks before Easter due to busy busy busy at work but for this weekend / holiday as we call it / time for reflection as we celebrate it, i was then able to have better amount of sleep/rest...and to add that was able to offer something for Him :)

As a Christian, I have sinned many times, fell a couple of times.. wished/hoped people i'm irritated, i could get even..i'm just so normal that i do thought that these people who betrays my trust could go to somewhere i wouldnt dare to go..or end up to somewhere i wouldnt see them or for them to just be invisible from me...whereas again as Christian im seeking for forgiveness..and for these people to realize to take care of people around them..and that as a christian i care for them..i may not be showy but i care and pray for them..


Just recently, the biggest joke of my life i came to faced with..not literally saw you know..but methaporically...it's so hard to let go..i'm so tough outside where my friends cannot decipher im having a hard time dealing with what you call rejection..luckily ..thankfully...greatfully, i cannot figure out what better word to use to describe it..i'm better...i'm no longer crying because of some sort of ego jerk...

What's most important is there's hope for everything that is happening to me..to everybody..to the society..

and it's so great to listen to Carrie Underwood's album..just so great...love her songs for real!!!!